October 23, 2005
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Still here. Josh and I had a fight last night. It was pretty bad. I think I am gonna sleep in the computer room until I feel I can truly trust him again. I now got three xangas. I am thinking of shutting one down but I am not sure. Of course it wouldn't be this one... maybe angelic_alium? But I really like that name... sure isn't gonna be the third one I got. Thats the one I am most active on right now. I really love this site, but sometimes I am too sad to write what I go through here when I know people who know me will read it. On my third xanga I am annonymous. Well for anyone checking on me I am still here and I will try to post at least once a week here. I'll try not to make all the posts depressing.
I went in for my SSI interview this past wednesday. I don't think it went well. Just gotta wait for a reply in the mail I guess. It's got me on end. Josh and I might have to move out... his mom will probably lose her job at WB because of their move to outsource programming jobs to India. Weee.... not. If she does, she will probably go to Ohio to be with her ex-husband and neither Josh nor I want to go there and see that guy again. We also don't want to move in with his dad. Last time I was looking into apartments though I found one for 500 w/ utilities. I am thinking I could handle paying rent and food if I get the SSI but we would have to find a way to make money for his car insurance, gas, clothes and all the other stuff. But at least we would have a roof over our heads and food. We'll see what happens.
