August 24, 2005
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Irony, i love irony! Just after i wrote that guess what happens? Josh and i get into another one of our "fights." He didn't walk away any better off than i did though. I made sure of that. And yes i went and bought a pack of ciggs, but something good came of it! I met this lovely lady, such a sweet woman! And she has a little girl. They are both so sweet and kind. I met them in the park where i normally sit when Josh and i fight. I was able to take her to show her the school that is nearby (its only a couple of blocks away but she is still learning the area since shes a homebody like me and they only just moved here. The girl has a lot of talent for drawing, but doesn't seem particularly glad that she will be starting school tomorrow! They only live a couple of houses away and will be comming over tomorrow. I am really glad i met them. The mother shares the exact same views i do of family and home and we have so much to talk about. I was amazed how easily i spoke to her since she speaks spanish. It has been so long since I have spoken spanish... i am surprised i could put two words together!!! I am so tired and i am so tempted to go to sleep! =( But I want to invite Justin over and i gotta start working on dinner (crockpot) and i need to clean especially if i am going to have them over. I keep getting thoughts in my head that if i lie down for just an hour... i need to get out of this comfty chair (hasn't been too comfty lately been spending too many hours straight sitting in it!) and get up and start doing what i am supposed to do... oh and even though i got up and stood up with josh all day yesterday to make it easier for him to stay away guess where he is? What am i going to do? I am going to insist that if he wants to get married that we need to go for relationship counseling. I don't want all this turmoil for the rest of my life. I did realize something today though, if we broke up i wouldn't remove the tattoo. Regardless of the status of our relationship, i really do love him so much.
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