August 11, 2005

• Wowwww cleaning is lots of hard work! Spent 7 hours cleaning out the kitchen, you know like spring cleaning and I am still not done. Josh helped me of course. I really worked my fingers to bone. They still hurt! And there is still plenty to do! I can see myself cleaning all week and still not finishing!!!

  
  

  Josh is so sweet and patient with me. I have been in a kind of rut lately. Kinda down and super irritable and feeling sick all the time definitely didn't help. I have been feeling that way for almost three weeks now. I think I am starting to come around though and Josh's way with me definitely helped. Hes been really understanding through it all, not that he doesn't make me want to choke him! But I suppose thats part of being a couple, eh? Yeah the past couple of weeks have been kinda sucky. I couldn't seem to get interested in doing anything anymore. Gaming, Hanging out, Smoking, watching tv, and definitely not anything that required any kind of movement/ work. Even though I am still kinda bored with most things, I at least am doing the cleaning again. Like I am starting to feel I have energy again. Now I need to get things done before I fall back into a rut again. Its like a never ending cycle.

  
  

  Now I had a list around here somewhere... of all the things that had to get done... I think I threw it at josh at one point in the past three weeks... 

  
  

  I feel like a turtle stuck in the middle of hot topic. There is so much going on, things that need to be done and I am just sitting there doing nothing. Money is definitely a factor. I hate all the ifs of waiting on money to come in. It is so much different when you have it just sitting there. Thats what Josh and I gotta do. We gonna start a little nest egg together for when we move out and all that. Have something to fall back on. When we are on our own and with children we cant just live from check to check, or at least its not smart to do if you can avoid it.

  
  

  You know what I really love about josh? How in tune we are with eachother. We both like the same games, the same tv shows, the same pastimes. You would think it would get boring but its just so nice and cozy. We are always on the same wavelength, well except when its time to clean! Aside from that though, we never have to worry about pleasing eachother. It just comes so naturally.

  
  

   

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