I r hungar!!! i cant believe i am up so late! I swear josh put me to play age of wonders on friggin purpose so i would forget the time and stay up late with him. well ill just have to have a clock put in the comp room then wont i? mwahahahhahahaha

I had to go to the mall and buy some tanks. normal shirts keep rubbing on the tattoo and drying it out. now though its ok. the tattoo isnt raised anymore and as far as i can tell so far no scabbing!!! me and josh have been babying the tattoos. I didn't smoke yesterday. I need to cut back on that.

btw... I couldn't post these last night for some odd reason but now they are working so here are the pictures I took at the movies when Josh and I went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Here is my seksy fiance!!!

I am sorry to inform all of Jennifer's friends that she lapsed into coma from the pain of the tattoo and they haven't been able to revive her as of yet. I will keep everyone posted here.... psych! it sooo didn't hurt. Sometimes it was a little sharp, but most of the time i was bored or it felt good or it tickled. The guy used the same trace for josh as for me so our tattoos are exact twins. Here are the pics!

Here is mine. I got it first, I was too nervous to wait.

This is Josh's.

All in all it was a pretty awesome day. I even got a new hookup!!! Btw dont mind how slimy they look. we got tattoo goo!!! gooey goey goo!

Willy Wonka was awesome. I was so exhausted from today though that I kept falling asleep! Josh was so mad at me! We took a strip of those photos you get in a booth? They look cute the first two, but the second two not so much.  ah well. I am so tired....

gawd dangit!!! i couldn't get the tattoo. after this long ass fight with josh with wrestling involved... believe you me that we put eachother through more in that fight than the tattoo! the guy wasn't there!!!! which means now i have to wait for tomorrow... grrrr Josh dragged me around town and bought me lots of jerkyyyyyyyyyyyyy and he took me to this cool spot for me to smoke out in the open without worrying! We had a whole field before us and the mountains behind us and we sat in the only shade in the whole area by a tree. It was an awesome feeling smoking out in the open enjoying the day... then again i smoke at the slide half a block away but that dont count! I smoke there usually at night... it was a different feeling during the day. But then stupid red ants came to eat us and we had to run for our lives... then something happened... yeah josh dragged me into walmart and dragged me around for... an hour and a half to two hours? And we were running around fucking around... i mean well we WHERE there to buy something but that doesnt mean we cant have some fun first.... So I had just smoked before we went into walmart keep this in mind... we are running around the store acting all goofy and he tries to tail me and my instinct is get away from him... so i do. i wind up stuck in the middle of walmart about to cry high off my ass and depressed as all shit cause i get it into my head that hes gonna give up looking for me and just take off and go and the store is gonna close in five minutes and ill be stuck inside and just all worse case scenario stuff. When josh found me he just ran at me to hold me cause he said i looked like such a lost little heartbroken kid. And now we are gonna go see willy wonka in the movies!!! if i can get him off my comp game... hes playing the Age of Wonders. Man that game is awesome!!! I totally suggest it to anyone just the scenarios alone are so fun!

Omgosh, today is the day. And of course Josh didn't get enough sleep so he is still in bed sleeping and I am up with nothing to do completely freaking out! I am just scared that I am gonna jump. Anyone have any idea what happened to Samika? I would love to talk to her again! Talking to everyone is making me think more of my memories of back east, it is making me miss New York all over again and I want to kick myself because I can not just walk down the street and take a train and visit all the places I am thinking about. I never thought I would be married out here in California... I always thought I would meet someone out here and go back to New York and get married there. (I used to have dreams when I was very little about meeting the love of my life in California, and Josh looks just like him and acts just like him... just I didn't picture his name being Josh!) I wanna spruce up my xanga a bit more. I have been doing some minor changes lately and if you guys know of some code that would make my site a little better dont be afraid to share it! I was going to totally redo the site and do it in a goth or witchcrafty theme, but I love the Last Unicorn!!! Oh well. I need to eat something so I don't get light headed... I am so nervous!!!

talked to Yerdz for the first time in forever! it was cool, kinda trippy, but cool!!! omgosh im so tired but i skerd to go to bed... tomorrow is the big day... tattoo day.... EEP!!!

I kinda wish my first love/ first best-friend could come to the wedding, the only problem is I do not know where he is!!! Or how to contact him!!! Thanks to Nick that is. His name was Jorge Torres. I do not remember his middle name. He used to have an email on Yahoo JayHbk or something, I have sent him emails but he probably does not use it anymore. He used  to live on fifth avenue and.... 55th street? in Sunset Brooklyn. He went to Fort Hamilton Highschool with me in Bayridge. If anyone finds out anything about him could you guys let me know? I am debating getting a private detective to find him... shouldn't be TOO hard! I am sure he has a driver license and all that to track him down with. With money tight for the wedding, I don't want to waste money on some fraud you know what I mean? And you can not trust a lot of those online places. I am open to suggestions.

Omgosh I am sooo freaked out!!! Josh and I are going on Monday to get matching tattoos!!! Josh is  a little iffy about it but i am HOPING once he sees me go through it and live that hell be fine. Only time will tell, he keeps going back and forth so he decided to wait until he gets there to decide for sure. We are getting really cutesy lately because we are thinking of getting married soon. I am sooo scared. I am not really worried about the tattoo being there forever, I am scared about the pain. After all this time I am still a big baby! First I am going to go have my hair done, then I am going to get my eyebrows waxed and then off to the tattoo shop!!! The place is called Artifact and the guy who does it there seems like he does it real well. We watched him pierce two guys tongues then go and do some tattoos. He is really comfortable with what he does and seems to enjoy it! I am getting the witch's claw tattooed on the back of my neck. It is gonna hurt like a bitch when the thing is tattooing over my spine. I am going to be taking some advil before I go in for that! Josh's is gonna be just above his heart. Its gonna be black black black the darkest black dye there is. oh man I wanna scream im so nervous!!! What bothers me most about it isnt that its gonna hurt, but that its gonna last at least an hour! Its not like ok well im freaking out now but its over in like a second and its over with nooooooooooooooooooooooo after it starts thats just the beginning!!! bah =( I think it will be a nightmare if I get it and Josh doesn't! I dont think hell let me down like that, but if he does Ill just have to cope with it. I do not want to force him into it and then have him hate me for it after. Did I mention I am dying of nervousness and its not till tomorrow?