January 13, 2005
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january 13... ive been here about 6 months and in 6 months that makes a year. i spent the holidays with josh's family in vegas. we watched the ball drop in new york and then we looked at fireworks on the strip for the west coast new years. yeah they dont have a ball or nothing! but i think im starting to get used to it out here... im going back to school to finish my highschool diploma. im trying for the third time to quit smoking. i started yesterday around... 9pm. i have a bad chest cold but ive been managing. julie is having mood swings. sometimes shes just the cutest lil birdie and other times shes so vicious! kinda how Dieno used to be. My ex has been contacting me. I dont know why he talks to me i mean it seems all i do is piss him off. he keeps loggin out while we are in the middle of talking either because i dont wanna talk on the phone or something like that. i dont wish him harm in fact i thought he would have forgotten about me by now considering hes the one who originally dumped me. but it appears he hasnt and i dont know what to do. i like my new life and i dont think ill be going to new york anytime soon. Josh and I are going back on walks again to help me quit smoking and we read together and play so many things. somehow i just get the feeling he isnt as interested in me anymore. i know he loves me but i mean interested in me. who knows i could just be down in the dumps from being sick all week.
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