well im in that icky period with josh between 2 and 3 months. i have something nice planned to give him for our three month anniversary. i know that i never did follow those things... but this time id like to. even though we are on shaky ground... and to tell you the truth the idea of a day without him sounds nice right about now... i hope it works out in the end. i dont want to go to bed angry yet. w/e happens happens though right? i love him. i know that much, but im through playing a martyr. now i have to worry about being too proud.